This week hasn't been the most fabulous week of 2010. I've been a day behind, for starters. On Tuesday I thought it was Monday. On Thursday I thought it was Wednesday. Today feels like yesterday. You get the idea. My daughter's been waking up a little earlier than usual so I've been tired everyday, all day. I think that's problemo numero uno. I'm tired. When I'm tired everything gets heightened to the enth degree. Crapola hits the fan in any and every situation. I make mountains out of molehills. Etcetera. Not my favourite state of mind to be in.
Our house tends to be a little chaotic, as far as toys strewn about and cupboards empty of all their contents. Normally this doesn't bother me so much. I'm pretty laid back on most occasions. We have a busy toddler in the house so it's expected that our house will look like Toys R Us threw up in it. But this week I've been frustrated by it. Why do we need to empty ALL the lotions out of my lotion drawer and put them on the bathroom floor, our bedroom, and her bedroom? Why do we need to drop the lamp again for the 100th time? Why do we need to touch the remote again after repeatedly informing her that this is not a toy?
After giving up on nap time (hers, not mine) I went and laid in my bed as she ran around beside me. Tears fell down my cheeks, onto my pillow. I prayed. For patience. To be slow to anger. For rest. For energy. For love. Lots of love.
Then this peace came over me. Peace that can only come from God. In the stillness of my room He spoke to me, He told me to take time.
Take time to rest.
Take time to be with my family, my daughter.
Take time to love.
Take time to relax.
Take time to embrace the coming Christmas season.
Take time to enjoy my surroundings.
Take time to rest my mind.
Take time to not work.
Take time to fall more in love with Him.
I've been busy, as you can see from my blog posts. It's great, I love my clients and I love the work I've been doing! But I need to slow down right now. I have hardly even thought about Christmas this year. I hate that. I love Christmas. I love what it's all about. The real reason, not all the Santa/presents hoopla.
I still have a few shoots to finish editing, which I'm working on now, but I'm strongly feeling like I need to take a break. I feel bad for clients having to wait so long to get their pictures. I feel like I'm on the path of burning out, or just not working as efficiently as I'd like to.
So, that being said, I think I'm going to slow down temporarily. Aside from the couple shoots I already have booked in December, I don't think I'll take on any more. We're going to visit my inlaws that are out of province for a week in a few weeks and I want to be able to enjoy that week off, not thinking about all the work I left at home. I want to come home and enjoy Christmas with my family. I just want to be present, whole heartedly, for this Christmas season.
I hope you can understand where I'm coming from! Please do email me if you're interested in a session and we can plan for a shoot in the New Year! I am so thankful to have found my true calling and my passion. I love it. I love all of my clients, all of my photo shoots. I love the anticipation of what 2011 will bring for me and my business! It's all so very exciting and I thank you all for being a part of that!
Enjoy your weekend! I know I will! We're having multiple Pizza Nights with different friends and that's just fine by me! =)
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This is my week to a T! Nice to know I am not the only one out there!
ReplyDeleteLoved the analogy of "Toys R US throwing up in your house" that's what ours looks like everyday!
Thanks for reminding me to take time too :)
You are definitely NOT alone Justine!!! =)
ReplyDeleteYou know, I was honestly thinking, "Geez, she seems busy" when reading the past few posts. I wondered how you were keeping up, especially after your last "editing" post and realized how long that must take.
ReplyDeleteThis post had me a bit teary because for the past 8 weeks I have been in the same state. Starting my MA with two small kids is proving to be a lot more difficult than I expected. I can ditto everything you said in the start of this post. I know that I don't take time. This is a good reminder and I've put on some Christmas music to help it to sink in! Glad to hear of your decision to nurture yourself. You certainly deserve it!
Your honesty is so refreshing. Thank you for reminding me to take some time. I often get way too caught up in things that are so clearly not important :)
ReplyDeleteGet some rest, get some peace of mind, and enjoy the holidays with your family! Sending happy thoughts your way :)
I will definitely get some rest! I hope you guys take time to rest too!!!! Work is not the most important thing in our lives. Don't forget that!
ReplyDeleteSo true. I guess we all run into situations where we gotta make those boundaries sometimes or else we go mental...you know you're tired when a spoon is dropped off the hairchair and you wanna cry. hehe...been here a million times. Have a good Christmas!
ReplyDeleteExactly, jess!! haha.
ReplyDeleteKeep goin Vanessa! You're doing great. But it's good to recognize that you need breaks too! Rest in His peace.....Merry Christmas :)
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